I've started all this binge, purge, starve business again. Tonight was a binge, tomorrow and for the next four days will be a starve. I do this all too often. I do actually need to lose it though. I'm not one of these girls who is a size 6 (UK, I'm a size 16 (UK) and I hate it. I want to be so thin, I have since I was ten, now I'm in my twenties and it still hasn't happened. I was a size 22 once, which is disgusting. I managed to lose most of that through this method, so I've returned to the tried and tested to finally rid myself of this disgusting mass that calls itself my body. Something to do isn't it? I'm going to eat some more, I went swiming for a couple of hours today and I'm really hungry. I'm giving in only tonight. The rest of the week must be perfect. I know I can do it, it just takes will power. I think this blog will help me. I understand there will be people who take offence to all of this, if you do, then please read something else. I don't want to encourage this behaviour but I do know that it can help to know someone is going through the same things sometimes. It is the way I am and writing helps me.